轻沙随风难解思念的伤.
this line keeps repeating itself in my head, and i think it's because I'm about to die without 你们的陪伴, squids ):
It's been 3 weeks since I have talked to you guys..Have you all ever tried going on for a trip, without any squids to talk to at all? ): And I'm going to miss all the fun in singapore..like csm-ing and nydp-ing and kbox-ing and dining with squids. i feel kind of..lonely.
how to say it. it's like, even without my presence for any of these events, everything will still go on, it's like, even if i died the world will still continue to revolve on its own axis, without any care for the fact that someone called chua yi jia is gone from the world. haiz. and im not even sure how i will contribute to these events, like making squadmates happy and stuff? but i would still like to join you all, if i have the chance.
and im scared that i'll screw up shooting comp..i only have one wk plus to prac for shooting after i return to singapore.. ): i dun want to screw up. i want to do the unit proud.
haiz. shit. i want to return to singapore ): i have had enough of beijing and all the stupid things that have happened here.
im so sorry, but i love you.
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