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爱你，是我幸福也是我的担忧 {♥}
♥ Monday, March 31, 2008

squadmates bu yao shang xin ok (: dont emo, tomorrow is our wonderful second 1st squad birthday! :D happy birthday to us :DDDDD

remember, mas selamat is a 2/3 woman and its because the police say so!

glenda (:

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♥ Sunday, March 30, 2008

squadmates. bu yao shang xin le. yao ku jiu ku chu lai bah! we are here for you. <3

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i need comfort.i seriously need comfort.i cant stand the fact.
i cant
jiu4 jiu4 wo3
whyyyyyyyy
why why why why

can sum1 tell me its a lie?

i shld learn to face the fact. i know.
but its hard.
i should appreciate that at least i got to pitch after prelims which is what i wanted. but u know.. when i got the hope of getting into finals once again, and the basha was finalised, 3 hr later, sqm called to say.. .. .. team 2 didnt get in..
omg.

Puay Ling

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♥ Saturday, March 29, 2008

Hmm im very wu2 liao2 so i went to write out something that popped into my head while i was hoping for something... and i stopped hoping for that thing

Equivalent Exchange

Equivalent exchange is a rule that most people believe. This naïve thinking that if they offer something of equal value, the thing that they want would come true. This may seem true for business as trading comes when you need the offered item more than the one you own. That would mean that at least one item is of equal value to one party, the value of both the item can never be equal to one party himself.

The value of the thing you trade will never be the same as the one you are bidding for. If it was the same, one would not offer that item. It is not possible for one to want something so much and be able to offer something of the same value away. The moment he or she chooses to use that item for trading, its value has already gone down much lower than the item he or she wants. Thus, the rule of equivalent exchange does not exist.

“Equivalent Exchange: The rule that alchemists in the series consider to be the foundation of Alchemy, or even the fundamental law of the world: to obtain, something of equal value must be lost. One of the themes of the series is examining the implications of Equivalent Exchange as a philosophy. It also investigates into whether Equivalent Exchange is a natural law, or rather, a false ideology. As an example, the two brothers frequently quote the chemicals present in the human body, in thinking that this simple chemical exchange would be all that was needed to bring someone from the dead.”
-Full Metal Alchemist, wikipedia.

Most religious people go to churches or temples and hope for what they want; but how can one hope for one thing after another? It destroys the balance of things in the world. Thus, things can never go the way you want. Some people resort to equivalent exchange by hoping for something and giving up something in return. But, the wish would not be grant as the items do not have equal value. The value can never be set by the person him or herself.

That is how balance is kept in this world, there is no use hoping for something, it will come when you have exchanged it with time. The moment you get it is the moment you have already exchanged it with its equivalent.

i dunno whether y'all agree anot... and i also dun care xD this is just one of the logics i come up with to answer my own questions

(pardon my poor english xD)

-jiajiaxD

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my mood has lifted over the past few hours or so. (: i shall now share a joke.

squadmates, why is mas selamat 2/3 woman?

because he is a wanted (1/3) man!
the magic of mathematics!

glenda :D

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SQUADMATES!

you all hor, must come and watch npap ah. my mother is going to watch my sister's school's military band syf (my sis isnt even in military band -.-") and my father say he watch parade sian le. so squadmates you all must go to be my pillar of support! i will not emo about my parents. (:

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Campcraft Competition '08 Prelims

Sheet 2.

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♥ Tuesday, March 25, 2008

YAY SQUADMATES! Read Lee Simin ma'ams dedication to us! And the rest of our ex-NCOs' too haha very touching. Hahaha.

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♥ Monday, March 24, 2008

i hate to do proj when i am the only one in the grp doing. i dunno y some people nv spare a thought for others..
its so frustrating. they just seem to do everything for their own benefit..ya its nice to relax and dun do proj then u can slack n study while others are rushing the proj for ur sake!
am i always so suay to get such ppl? the fact is they want to do the proj but they didnt want to do so early ... is it so nice to do things last min? hah! i know i am a bad example of last min studying but it dun mean that proj shld be last min too when competitions r coming up now...

I AM SINKING TO THE BOTTOM OF THE OCEAN

this is inhumane..

oh anw, another msg lies deep within wad i am saying now too(:
before u do or say anything, pls think of the ppl's feelings around u.. i dun like to see sqm being mistreated by anyone.. but its bad to provoke as we might make the situation even worse.. so yeah.. think b4 u act

here is a bad news.. my chinese is only 51% .. that is very very very very lan4. and i am going to fail my languages.. and i cant promote to sec3!!
:( - can't believe i am blogging non-stop

yay!! tmr act is campcraft.. (: i can pitch again

Puay Ling

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I feel that failure just slapped me in the face. I've been doing badly for my maths, and my teacher is not very pleased about it too. The thought of it frightens me, shiverss. I have been feeling all wrong over, feeling stupid, and feeling sick. I almost puked today.

And I am tensed up for so many things, that is when cookiemonster appears. When I'm veryveryvery stressed. So even though he is a cute thing, it's quite bad that he appears. And I've been keeping something to myself, inside me for very long and I feel very horrid about it.

To get my mind off all the painful and stressful stuff, I decided to listen to all the songs I used to love when I was in primary school, it works like a charm sometimes. It makes me less confused and contradicting inside. Enough about my troubles and everything.

Okay, so I'm slacking to blog here, and tomorrow is our first time doing campcraft as a squad! Let's all get excited about it. (: I know some squadmates get very happy about it. JIAYOU okay!

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♥ Sunday, March 23, 2008

lol. seriously i cant believe.
y???????????????????????
its all okay.. all trainings seems fine..
oh.. i shall not crap here.

i am so not feeling well now.
i feel like vomiting but noth comes out ):
just hope i can go sch tmr and hear the result THAT WE WOULD BE GIVEN ANOTHER CHANCE!!

WE MUST BE CONFIDENT and dun zi4 zhe2 le.
just zheng1 xi1 wateva training we are going to hv.. (we are going to get into finals and we will- we must get in- we must.. ... .. )

hai... i was so down when i got home ytd.. and i know how sad ___ feels too.all the reds faces.. lol

yesh.. courage not to give up.
we are still part of team2 08 and no one can replace us. only one team2 in 2008 ct comp. yesh.. 4eva part of team 2 08...
i wun forget this fact.. and be confident that we will get in tmr:)

--sadly i am getting more and more emotional. and i dun1 this to happen animore. .. . . plsssss let us in

****i like the keychain.. it will 4eva remind me of our happy and wonderful trainings. :) :) i just wish to get to pitch again. pls fulfil my wish... ..

Puay Ling

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♥ Saturday, March 22, 2008

i feel guilty.
i feel indebted to the basha.
i feel weird towards hta pegs.
is like i couldnt even peg properly.
couldnt even aim properly.

and pl. why did you cry.
i will get affected one leh.
when ex-ma'ams said good job i felt i didnt deserve it.
i feel such a failure.
this isnt the norm. it really isnt.
no excuses to why. because this IS the real thing.

unless it rained today. then postpone again.
how i wish can turn the time back.
but obviously nothing is going to happen.

but then results are not out yet. PRAY FOR THE BEST :D
monday results out. so we have one more whole day! :D
WE CAN DO IT. BELIEVE IN OURSELVES~

Courage is doing and standing up for what you think is right

this is quite applicable because we think that we can do it. and i shall stand up for this idea and continue believing in us. because you know i know we all know we did our best.

NYCT TEAM TWO WHOOSH!~

team one jiayou! :D hope everyone gets into finals! :D

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♥ Friday, March 21, 2008

tomoro prelims finally dao le =) weee
squadmates jia you for CT PRELIMS +) WEEEE
wo men yi ding xing de =)
team 1 team 2 jia you =) weee
lets hope it will not rain tomoro at all =) weee
jia you jia you =)

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♥ Thursday, March 20, 2008

i am feeling so sad again. ma'ams say my lashing very ugly.. omg.. and on sat.. ... ... ... i cant imagine.. i dun hai4 everyone.. hais...
today training was fun!! everyone was so nice...
lol.. i got bullied today:(
and i 4got my math working?:(
and i din finish my sc paper ytd!! :(
and i noe i am so damn weak in chinese and LA..
i am sooo dead..

hai hai hai hai hai
i know we shld not be so "possessed" with a person.. yeah but that was too late.. hai ... my block test bei hai4 shi3 le.. anw, i have been like this since last yr.. imagine.. ... ... how much better i cld hv done.. lol
and its a good thing anw, u wun feel sooo emo all the time.. and i am going crazy now
BLOCK TEST ARE OVER!!!

finally.. ...
.. i admit i didnt study much ...
hai.. ... ... ... ... ...

sqm going crazy and saying crazy things in ct is common haha.. esp sum1 hu lian4 twine with me during LSC de.. lol ... ... .... u make me so "faceless" and i also go crazy and high with u..

saturday...
things please go well..

Puay Ling

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♥ Monday, March 17, 2008

although we're not sure whether you come here or not. but here goes,

親愛的你:

我了解

我們都了解

那種感覺是無法忍受的

那種明確知道你是它的一份子但又感覺不到在一起的溫暖的感覺

看這是你一個人感到疲憊默默忍受這一切實在令人心痛

我們有多麼地無奈多麼想和你一起分享喜怒哀樂

畢竟我們也是在同一條船

我們也因疲憊而想過放棄

但千萬別灰心我們會永遠地支持你

別擔心

你永遠都是我們敬愛的領導人物

你肯定是值得我們尊重的

他人曾經不是對你說過有一天你的學妹會把你當成心中最尊敬的人嗎

這一天早已來了而且是你經歷了那麼多痛苦和複雜心情才賺到的

你值得擁有我們的敬佩別老是那麼小看自己

我們真的很想跟你一起承擔這一切當你傷心是安慰你

但因為現實的限制無法這麼做

總而言之你不是一個人忍受這一切現實的殘酷

不管甚麼發生我們的肩膀永遠願意讓你靠

我們也想趁這個機會感謝你一來對我們的教導灌注

是我們成了更有用的人

很抱歉從前誤會了你但從這一刻起再也不會發生那種實在不應該是了

帶著萬份的感激,
我們倆

note the above letter was written by more than one party.
信不信由你.

the letter above was seriously not meant to be sarcastic. it's our 真心話.

we hope you all won't 藐視這件事. although you might not know about this. but it's seriously not be for you all ignorant people. it's meant for someone who needs our help. and concern. and we are now showing concern in this form.

but because of 死圍牆, we cannot do anything.

so we're doing something now.

signing off,
我們兩個D.

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♥ Sunday, March 16, 2008

I realised i didnt post here for quite a long time already. O:

Jiayou for block tests squadmates :D I hope i dont fail chem as usual. :/ Surprisingly the progress report thingy didnt make me sound too bad (: Because i am not bad :D *ego*

My sister giving me her handphone! :D

Peiyin is my shitouuuuuu (:

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♥ Saturday, March 15, 2008

Squadmates.

When can our squad learn to have less conflicts? (dramatic sigh) Squadmates, i really seriously SERIOUSLY don't kan bian other sqdms. So please do not misinterpret. In fact i believe that ta men ke yi de! If you think i am very jia xin xin (nth to do with sqdm's post) or smth, i got nothing to say. Maybe i have already been cut off from your world. So if i am already cut off from your world, it will be kind of you if you do not come infurate me. Thanks.

Peace man. --

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please do not fill this place with vulgarities.
if you want to say something, say it to that person's face.
it really doesn't look good at all.
if not, just shut up.

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♥ Thursday, March 13, 2008

Hey sqdms!

i just noticed...no i didnt jsut oh well. i notice that our sqd has a weird proportion. so im wondering how we are gonna split shi tou shi wei xD haha can u guys picture kw and pl as shi tou shi wei xD sqdms zai fan nao whether they are shi tou shi wei. hmmm i dun really have to bother coz i bao shi wei. its just who is my shi tou LALALA. i hope my nose wont run away =)

your bored sqdm.

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♥ Tuesday, March 4, 2008

O: lifeskills camp tomorrow! squadmates jiayou :D

i am a high i :D i know alot of squadmates are high i YAY! :D

hope everyone will enjoy the movie tomorrow night (: haha wonder what happens if my class shows the eye 10 instead! hope all the events you all planning will be very shun li (:

never jump in lt2, squadmates.

jiayou for camp squadmates :DDDDDD

high i glenda.

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♥ Monday, March 3, 2008

anyway, cliques are totally nan mian de. even if you feel very bonded as a squad and you feel a sense of belonging with squadmates, it's very inevitable that cliques will form and that you are, or eventually will be, closer to certain squadmates than others. and it's not that cliques are bad, because cliques are only formed because some people have the same common interests. even though np mixes many different people together, but that doesn't mean that all of us have to love each other as much and that we all have the same likes, dislikes and goals, unless by chance all of us have the same type of personalities. and since we have different characters, of course we will still gravitate toward people whose characters are most similar to ours right. and there will also be conflicts and friction between people because our squad isn't wan mei and it won't be. the only way there won't be cliques is if the squad size is so small that it's the size of a clique. and anyway, our squad doesn't really have many problems apart from having cliques which ISN'T REALLY A PROBLEM! because. my personal opinion is that as long as we feel belonged to 41 and we like each other and don't dislike each other or are neutral or whatever, we've succeeded in being bonded. which is i guess the main goal or something.

haha! try to guess who i am :D it's quite easy.

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wah nvr blog in sqd blog for a long~ long~ time... i think my last post should be quite far away from this one... weeeee~ siao le... xD
aiya i thought cliques didn't matter since every1 is in one so no one gets left out... not gd meh? its difficult to be like so close to so many ppl... cliques bu4 hao3 meh? its not like we hate each other...
frankly hor... the day before yesterday(at lot 1)... seriously, i was hoping we would split into our cliques sooner... i also dunno how to say... since some of us watching movie and some of us not... isn't it better to just split... aiya i dunno... this is my own personal opinion... even if we together we also talk in our cliques and since it makes our lives so difficult to follow each other arnd... split bu4 shi4 better lor? aiya maybe y'all trying very hard to prevent cliques...
but im trying very hard to make my own life better by encouraging cliques... a lot of ppl, difficult to talk ar, difficult to joke ar, the joke breaks halfway and half the ppl laughing, others not... lidat very gd meh?
aiya anyway i knw some sqdms dun like me... but i not very sensitive ar... and hor i also dun exactly mind since making the whole world like u takes like forever and when u realise it u wasted so much time le... so as long as im happy can le... im very selfish but its because i knw not everyone is lidat thats y i can afford to be lidat... am i making sense?
have to go bathe and got tuition le... bye people...

-jiajiaxD (y ppl dun like to sign off with their names? ok nvm... i dun think there is a proper reason for that... everyone thinks differently anyway... lalala~ im hateble... pls say im not though i knw i am...)

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YAY 204th post. Coincidentally 204 is jacinta and alicia's class O: Glenda tan has advanced to grade 3 guitar hahahahahaha congratulate me bah i know all squadmates are very happy for me :D

I want to play waterbombs :D Why doesnt lsc let us play waterbombs :/ And i want to sleep in quad. I dont believe sleep in quad then will catch a cold -.-"

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♥ Sunday, March 2, 2008

HAHA. Quick go here. YES I KNOW IT'S LOCKED. But! Squademail can be used~~ to open it! Haha. AND TELL ME THAT THE LAYOUT IS NICE! My first effort, must support me! :D:D:D:D K byebye.

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me =)

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