i am so
sad n depressed.
so many things happened today. i am bursting.
seriously, i dun think i am the only survivor around in this evil feeling place
i have been thinking abt all that happened. i realise the world is changing or am i?? i dun understand. y.. i did what was right and u1 hv to think that i didnt do it. u2 think i did it on purpose?i can leave it for others. u3 many consider ur as the closest in sch to me but if u are, would you be so cruel to ur sqm?!! anyway, i feel like quitting ct and let our sqm hu wants to join to join. though i really really really LOVE love love ct.. i just feel like giving everyything up. giving everyything up!!! giving everyything up!!!! no one cares anyway! it feels like the end of the world.
i want want want want to talk to someone... but there is no earsss.. not even a cruel one wants to hear..
everything will still be the same tmr.. though i will have to miss tmr ct..
dalt and act will still be the same .. squadmates..unit... all the same cruel..
**actually i wanted to fall out during today's act. i was feeling so terrible terrible terrible.. but think of sqm i stayed ....................u nv tot of it anyway..
can i have an explanation?? i dun think anyone bothers.
_____我很想忘记所有的痛但我不能。
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